Jays 10th birthday

I dont even know how to start to tell you how much loving you and having you as my son has changed my life. Infact I feel like YOU gave me life......I remember the 1st night in the hospital....Daddy was beside me on a cot.....snoring away(we had labored all night the night before) you were in your bed, there was the 3 of us all lined up next to each other. And I remember thinking that I should move your bed cause it was near the door and our room was right outside the elevator(like someone was going to steal you) anyways I got out of bed(not an easy task) and moved your bed in between me and daddy. And I just stood there n looked at you...and it HIT me then....that you were ours....that I was your Mommy...that God choose us to raise you, to protect you, to guide and love you. In that moment , staring into your precious face I was overwhelmed and consumed with more Love then anything I had ever felt in my whole life. I felt whole and complete...I knew what it meant to say that you would die for somebody....and 10 years later as I look into your Baugh Blue eyes I still feel all those things I felt that night and more......I could have not SEEN then what I FEEL now.....my heart only held a glimpse of my love for you. You are the sweetest child ever.....your heart and love and compassion for people amazes me. Your spiritual maturity is a gift from God and I pray everyday that we guide you to use that in the very best way.....that we help you see HIS plan for your life. I know it is a amazing one and I am honored to be a part of it. I am blessed to be your Mom......this I know.....and I LOVE being your Mom....this I hope that YOU know..... You are outgrowing me already......you are over 5ft tall...you weigh 115 lbs and your ring finger and wrists are already bigger then mine.....I can wear your shoes and am pretty sure that they will be too big for me in the next year. But, I know that no matter how big you get that you will always be my baby, my firstborn son....who loved to sleep on his Daddys chest and play with my hair(even put it between your boppy n face) like I told you...IF I close my eyes.....my heart can see your whole life. I love you Jay Tyler~ Love Mom